satisfying appetites
I think that there’s a certain basic quota that all humans have … a satisfaction threshold, if you will, for carnal pleasures. And by carnal pleasures, I don’t just mean sexual satisfaction, I mean across the board. Everyone has a certain “appetite”. If the appetite is satisfied, it’s still there, but it’s not “hungry” — it doesn’t dominate your consciousness.
In the past, I think I have satisfied a significant amount of my appetites with food. I derived quite a lot of pleasure from eating, probably more than I had realized. And of course, pleasurable foods are fatty, calorie-rich foods, which is in large part why I am the way I am right now.
So, now that I’m on this fairly strict ultra-low-fat diet, I’m noticing that I’ve got a lot more unsatisfied ‘appetite’, and it has started to really dominate my consciousness.
It’s … unusual. I mean, normally I’ve got a pretty healthy libido, but I can somewhat keep it in check. But … today has just not been the day for that. Normally, I can just tune out the sex-drive undercurrent, and do what I need to do. Today, the dream I woke up with has just kept dominating my thoughts. I keep going back to it, replaying it, reliving it a little bit. And oh, it’s nice. Not satisfying like the real thing, but nice.
I wonder if this is going to be a regular thing. I don’t mind the heightened sex-drive — maybe it’ll serve to actually get me laid :-p.