“I’m really excited about this year”
You know. I must be getting pretty damned jaded.
This week’s been pretty slow. Worked a bit. Did a lot of random video gaming. Tried to adjust my sleep schedule (woo 11:30 classes!). Not a whole lot interesting … just sort of there.
The roommate’s still in his room basically all the time. Dunno what’s up with that … but I think he’s just like … I got the impression that he was sort of nervous or like afraid of me or something … I guess I can be kind of an ogre sometimes :p. Maybe I should take to stomping around and roaring … that’d be hilarious :).
I went in to work again today (despite it being sunday) … mostly to fill out a timecard and put in a couple hours (and only partly because I was hungry and wanted a sandwich). Walking in through the Krannert drawing room, there was some management student meeting or something … a dozen or so random college kids sitting around a table talking. The apparent “leader” guy said “I’m really excited about this year” … and my only immediate reaction was:
Wow … how cliché. A dozen, maybe a hundred people before you have sat where you’re sitting, or the equivalent, and said the exact same thing. I’m excited about this year. But why? Because it’s your year now, because you’re in command of the group, it’s your chance to shine. This year is your entitlement. It’s not just some opportunity, it’s yours. That’s why your excited. That’s why everyone’s excited. And all your little ambitions and dreams, all the grandiose things you think you’ll do … with cliché lines like that, saying things that have been said a thousand times before by a thousand people from whom you’re only superficially different, all of those things are destined to be crushed into a pulp of obscure banality.
Yep. I’ve definitely gotten jaded. Maybe to the point of a pessimistic existential crisis.