disconnect
I think one of the reasons I sort of feel “off” lately … other than the borked sleep schedule and lack of exercise and general physical not-healthyness, is that I sort of feel a disconnect from where I was before.
I think it’s a consequence of a prolonged period of fairly fast growth. Two years ago … even a year ago, I would hit google for what I didn’t know, and find a few dozen faqs and howtos that answered the question.
Now, the things I search for have grown more strange and obscure. They don’t jive the same way… I’m trying to figure out how to do things that people have done before, but that nobody’s really written faqs or guides or anything like that for.
It’s … sort of interesting, really. I’m in the position where I’ll have to acquire more than just a cursory familiarity with things, to the point that I can derive them myself instead of just following along. In other words, I’m forced to change from being a casual user to being a creative expert, in order to make progress. And that somehow makes me uncomfortable.